Ppl always saying “u need Jesus,” and “find God,” and “go 2 church,” and like, Stephanie Meyer is a fanatical Mormon and if loving the baby Jesus didn’t stop her from writing the c-section-by-tooth-werewolf-attracting-hellbaby, why the fuck you think He’s gonna stop me?
It seems this is my only outlet for the frustration and sadness I’m feeling right now
I wanna cry
I wanna die
I wanna have my mind erased so I can forget this
It figures the first girl I really feel something for in a long time, is never gonna love me back
Sure, the she’s on the internet and she lives far away
But sometimes when you feel strongly about Someone, you’ll do what it takes
And fuck I would do anything for her
I’d lose the weight and try to look better for her
I’d try to improve my creative skills and really impress her
I look at her and something beautiful
Something that sees past all the impossiblities and sees all the possibilities
I don’t wanna end up alone
But I’ve tried to find love for so long
That I’ve got no other choice
I don’t want to be in love
I want to experience it
It seems so unfair
That something I feel passionate about
Is something I’ll never obtain
I just feel so ugly
I feel so useless
I feel so forgotten
I feel just so worthless
And there’s nothing I can do
Or anybody else can do
I just wanna be happy
I just wanna love her
I feel so alone
More alone than I have ever been
And it sucks so fucking much